ups and downs

wow... these last few weeks have been nuts. a very emotional roller coaster. matt and i had been talking about making some changes and heading somewhere new for an adventure. we're still young, our kids are young, why not. so, matt had been applying to many, many jobs. most of which were back east. well, matt got a call for a job in utah that he had applied to quite a while ago. obviously i've always wanted to go 'home' and was very excited. everything happened very fast. they flew him down, interviewed, offered him the job all within a few weeks. i wasn't expecting anything to happen so fast and we had kind of stopped thinking about moving back to utah for now and had started focusing our search elsewhere. but, i really feel like things have worked out the way they should. everything has happened while i've been on vacation (in utah). i couldn't get home any sooner because of my race. we ended up listing our house last week (thank you matt, kerry, julie, kim and sara) which was nuts since i couldn't be there to get it staged. i was having major anxiety and stress. crying over everything. anyone who knows me well knows how much i need to be in control of my situations. well, this was completely out of my control and i just had to let go (not an easy thing) and i'm still working on it. there is no sense in me coming home right now since everything is already staged and i'd just have to keep the house clean and leave every time someone wants to come see the place. what a whirlwind... i am going to miss so many things about seattle. family, friends, my ward, the water, the green, my house, my gym, my grocery store, etc. etc. you get the picture. it will take some time to readjust living in utah, but we're excited. it's a strange feeling to know that we're actually moving back here (i really never thought it would happen). i feel like i'm living in a dream. almost all of my friends have moved, things have changed, people have changed. it will be like starting over. which is all part of any adventure! now that my race is over and the house is out of my control, i feel much much better. there isn't much i can do until i get home and then we'll pack up in a whirlwind and move in a few weeks.... crazy! anyhow, here a few pics of the house. it's strange to not see my decorations. it doesn't really look like my house. which is good since we're not selling 'me'. wish us luck to be able to sell our house quickly!

it's sad to see all of the work and love we've put into this house. but, we'll find a new home eventually and make it ours again.